First EncounterIntertwined with our eyes, I see that is almost the fit of my shoe.
Not because it is stronger or more intelligent than most, but because she has achieved what few have achieved throughout life.
She has found a weakness in my defense.
All their movements are so elegant, so graceful, so perfect, so ... maybe too perfect.
As the sound of your voice can silence the world and the touch of your skin makes my body shiver.
And when I look into your eyes ... Well, let's just say I'm overwhelmed by your warm, wonderful and magnetic charisma, as if we were just her and me, as if everything else had ceased to exist.
I close my eyes with the intention of blocking all that information, but I know that will be etched in my mind, no matter how hard I try to delete it.
She loves me and accepts me as I am ... makes the decision much easier.
I convince myself that is it ... that really is it .... even long after it has vanished.
And I want everything to be perfect.
I want to be everything you dreamed it
LOVEOne word that contains an entire universe. A single word that contains many meanings for us. The combination of your name and mine, the perfect union between two equal parts ... converted into one.
I was thinking about how many people are to be loved. But in reality is that there is just one…a first lover forever.
I've always wondered if the destiny is a matter of chance or if due to forces unknown ... Yes, the fantasy is as real as us.
Bits and pieces of dreams. Ideas, desires, fears, memories ... a living history ...
The way we'd found each other from the beginning, the way we always find the path for our particular universe.
It's the truth, or as close to the truth than I can say, certain things are beyond any understanding. Two creatures working as one unified body.
We were meant to be. Like two flames unite and blend into one.
Something so big that never get fully describe, at least not in my lifetime, nor in eternity.
Someone who shares my dreams, more importantly, my feeli
Even after existenceI too had a love, it was big, perhaps as much as it is today my pain. I also felt the charm of a scented mouth.
I can’t see you sad, because it kills me ... the essence that was the light of my soul.
Your face full of sorrow ... my sweet love ... Today I missed that nothing that was between you and me, subtle and quiet.
It hurts so much those tears that you pour out... it fills my heart with anguish ... and trying to smile, even with closed eyes, I see you perfectly.
I suffer the unimaginable if you are sad ... and it just seems natural to have your lips against mine, against my face and throat.
I do not want that doubt makes you cry. The notes of the violins impose their pace, our pace, the rhythm of your heart.
We have sworn to love us until death, and if the dead love, after death we can love us even more.
Oh ... Women that walk in front of me and never dedicate their glances at me ... So close to my eyes, so far away from my life...
And she, the special one, always smiling, l
Heartache Every MomentI had never seen eyes so naive. That soft mouth, of pastel color, that velvety skin ... everything in her looks fragile but perfect.
A star on top of another, never a calculable amount, a passion for you, about a passion for you.
Breathing with your gazes, your eyes, your heart. It was stupid to be so focused on one person, and I knew it.
A strange sensation at see you, you're looking in the wrong direction. And as if guided by a divine hand, for the sweet push of destiny, turn your gaze to me.
Everyone knows the beauty of your eyes, and you know they are the most beautiful ... and still you dedicate me a glimpse ... then why when you look at me you do it coldly ? With eyes so cold that freezes the soul.
You do that to hurt me, but I must say that you reflect a little spark of pity for this undignified love for you. Even so, your look is more beautiful than the person who looks at you, do not look at me like that ... because you will not be less beautiful.
And if you have a second of y
hallucinations and dreamsHow do I call you without losing the romance and mystery?
What ritual or dance is done to the moon to bring me your kisses?
The death of a being of such beauty is a spectacle that seems to me as sad as wonderful... I feel compelled to stop it.
Every night, when I retire quietly of your dreams, but not before leaving a black rose on your pillow, along with a note "Goodbye beautiful girl. You already have a place in my heart. "
For a moment, a feeling consumes me the idea of staying here by your side until I'm lifeless...
But then I think about the consequences of letting me die: my soul would rest, yes; but my body would miss you, and that pain could not bear a lifetime.
One sometimes die slow, and miss everything that has not happened yet, living in a fantasy, a fast and bright longing to that person who has not even turned around to see us ...
These are seemingly endless minutes, minutes where only exists pain and torture.
The pain becomes a pang.
The rumors are floating in the mist.
If an angel hears meIf there is an angel near me, I pray to remember me, and I know it will, at see my love for you.
Although I also know... that between me and her, the sky only have dark clouds...
I will pray, I will seek, I swear, I will find it, even if I had to look in a million stars.
In this dark life, absurd without you ... I feel you've become the center and the end of my universe...
If love have any limit, I would cross it for her, and in the vast emptiness of my nights, I feel you, and I will love you ... like I could love you for the first time, when a kiss was a whole lifetime...
Feeling like I lost all my mind... for you.
I understand that your kisses must never be mine, I realize that I will never see my reflection in your eyes. But despite that ... my heart ... instead of love you less, loves you even more.
The two is just one single soul: The scent of her hair, the murmur of her silence...
Her smile like a sweet tale... the sweet honey I tasted on your lips.
I thought you and thought you
dalliancethis is an afternoon affair.
complete with sun slanting
through closed blinds
and an awful awareness of age.
she's fumbling through piles of clothes
talking about shit i don't care about, no doubt.
and all i can think about is fucking her. so i call her over to me
i am conscious of her body
beneath me but i am fucking
myself more than anything-
i dig and i dig and i dig
and i know it's hurting her,
i can hear it in her desperate doe moans
but i don't stop because there's not
any other FUCKING way to feel better.
she loves it in a broken way
but hell i just hate it. it's not
even sexy anymore. her lips are too soft
and she knows it too. she feels inferior
and jesus christ
i've never known her to feel anything more true.
and so i am seventeen and i feel every
inch of it. i realize that i am straddling
an italian style isthmus between peace and freedom.
you can never have both
(i love you so i won't bother
you with the truth. that would be
a selfish thing for me to do-
to fuck he
I Wish I Could Hate YouMy hand is itching,
And my gaze is ever wavering,
Back and forth,
To the cell phone right beside me.
It's 2:17 in the morning,
And the urge suddenly washed over me,
Urging me to call you.
There's hardly a chance of you picking up,
Even at a reasonable hour,
Never mind this ungodly one.
I wish I could hate you.
You're a liar and deceiver.
You've poisoned my mind, and poisoned my heart,
And almost rendered me incapable to ever love again.
You've abandoned me when I needed you most
When I needed SOMEONE
For your own selfish desires.
I know you still love me, too.
That only makes it worse.
At least if you didn't, you'd have an excuse.
But you've put yourself above everyone else.
You lying, cheating, filthy dog.
Is it any wonder that I've built walls around myself,
When there are arrogant,
Despicable people like you in the world?
Any reason why it's so hard for me to trust again?
To love again?
I'm too good for you.
I always wa
If Only I Had LivedI remember how I always said that I would face this moment with dignity, but it seems that noble disposition has left me now that the moment has come. My whole body shakes; not of cold or weakness, but out of fear of what is happening to me. It happened so suddenly; I never expected that a story such as mine should have such a silent and unheard end.
I remember how the memories of the people I loved and the moments with them calm me, but as I try to recall them from my mind I find that they are slowly fading. It just keeps getting harder and harder to recall their smiling faces, or the warm ambiance they brought. That truly terrifies me; that I am losing those things that are important to me. Yet, my life becomes clearer; though the details and memories I hold dear slowly disappear my whole life flashes before my eyes, just like everyone said it would. I see my countless hours spent in front of this monitor, as the world passes by outside of this room that I had shut myself in for so l
Looks LieI’m ugly and fat
But I can deal with that
‘Cause it means people like me for me;
Not for what they see.
Lonely GirlThat lonely girl over there is a misfit.
She cannot do anything without
Making a mistake.
Everyone thinks she's trash
To be thrown away and
Be forgotten like trash.
Always lonely, always lonely.
Why doesn't anyone help her
from her darkness?
"I'm fine," a lie through
No one asks her how
She feels at all.
Just alone, just alone.
There's nowhere she can
Go at all to be safe.
There's nothing she can
Do to be praised for at all.
Why can't she be saved at all?
Forever alone, forever alone.
"Can I please speak no--?"
Shut up stupid girl,
Shut up stupid girl.
You're not even worth listening to!
"Why are you living?"
"Is your life worth it?"
There's nothing I can do
Without a cruel remark of my life.
Forever alone, the misfit girl is.
There's nothing she can be seen
In a good light.
Why does everyone ignore and
Continue to hurt her?
"I'm just fine," is a
Lie through clenched teeth.
Nobody praises her for anything.
Why doesn't anyone help her
To stop her crying?
Will someone ple
Night thoughtsLying on the floor
Wrapped in darkness
Dreaming about life
About the past
About the future
Thinking about happiness
And about hate
All at once
In the black pit
That is my mind
No RemedyPopping pills
Won't make the
Wrists and arms
Won't make you
Getting in bed
Make you hollow.
Drinking your weight
Won't make you
Forget the pain.
Don't you think
For one second
Will be of any help.
I Am My EnemyScream again.
I can't contain the pain.
I need the bite of blade,
need to see the blood.
Trapped inside my head,
screaming never stops.
I need to get away.
Can't escape myself.
I find me wherever I hide.
I can't keep it in.
I can't let it out.
Letting go doesn't grant release.
My monsters hold me down,
hold me back,
lock me away.
I can't come back.
Trembling with emotion,
I reach desperately.
Reach for the unknown.
Even the silent air can't quell my screaming.
Shatter all my shackles,
shatter all my chains.
Break the doors and walls apart.
I'll release my demons.
All I need to do is let everything out.
Every last vanished self,
all my shadows, fears, and my memories.
If I could break the restraints,
the social repercussions,
I'd scream out loud.
Shattering all the windows,
I'd break every single glass.
Desperate to find what I have lost,
I know I will never have it again.
I will never be free of what I have become.
ImmortalThe soul is strong.
The soul is always seeking.
It does not cower in spite of fear.
For that is but the emotional dissonance
Between the heart and the mind.
Where the mind is subjected to bend and break
Through any matter of malevolent or ill will,
Or where the heart is easily starved by negligence...
The soul never dies.
It is loved.
It is cherished.
It is a reminder of who we are.
Our souls are never to be forgotten.
For we are immortal.
Still HereSuicide is a
Thought that frequently lurks
In my mind, wich
Lets it overcome the
Laughter and happiness
Here I still fight, however
Enduring this sad life
Reviving my hopes
Embracing the gift of life
GoodbyeI wish I could go back in time,
Back to the day you said goodbye,
Because I can't shake the notion
That something wasn't right,
Maybe it was the look in your eye
When you told me that we would be fine,
I saw the flicker of regret, I swear,
Or is it just my overactive mind?
I wished we didn't have to part ways,
But you said there would be better days,
Did you just say that to comfort me?
Did you lie to me that time again?
I wish it hadn't ended here,
I didn't want you to disappear,
But you said it had to be done,
Precisely the words I feared,
And now I see you're gone for good
And I don't know if I should
Forget you and say goodbye,
Or wait to see if you return.
¿Dónde están todos?
El humano hizo su trabajo
Matarse entre sí
Fría y cruelmente
Plantó una bala
En su vientre.
Caracas, Tokio, Madrid
Sídney, Londres y Bogotá
Son polvo en el viento
Acompañando el lamento
De razas enteras.
El martillo cayó
Erradicando el amor
Me oculté del genocidio
No quería ser un asesino
La violencia no soluciona
Al parar el crepitar
De los huesos
Salí de mi cueva.
Camino solitarios rumbos
Los únicos que conoceré
Porque más nada nacerá.
No más contacto humano
No más sol
No más amor
No más palabras
¿A quién se las daré?
Soy el último de todos
El más arrepentido.
Not At YouAs I deal with stress and anger,
despair boiling in my veins,
I chose to purge them into words on a page.
No one is to blame.
No one is targeted-
except maybe the universe and any higher powers.
The fear and uncertainty.
When will it end?
When can I be free of such wretchedness?
How does one rip out the darkness that spreads throughout my being,
poisoning everything it touches?
Is there nothing I can do?
I am being eaten alive,
consumed from within.
When there is nothing left,
will I finally have peace?
Or will terror and sorrow reign forever,
with me trapped within?
Bleeding words across this page,
I have to wonder-
will anger and hurt turn into something like hate?
If I can't defuse the darkness within,
will I lose everything I care about?
Circumstances thwart and conspire against me.
I am so tired of the anger eating away at my mind and heart.
Am I asking for too much?
The anger and hate cause horrible headaches,
and have me so twiste
La Oscuridad De Mi SerLa Oscuridad De Mi Ser
De pie, con la mirada fija al cielo,
la luna penetra mi ser, con su vista,
que recorre todos los rincones de mi cuerpo,
y se deleita de la profunda quimera...
Solitario vaivén, sinfonía de soledad,
cierro mis ojos, te veo lejana, tan lejana,
dulce brisa de un invierno en eternidad,
que me enterró en la más fría pesadilla...
Rostro de estrellas y luna en tinieblas,
veo tu corazón junto a arcaicas cadenas,
un mundo en el abismo eterno de la miseria,
si tu guías mi ser, todo en mi será tristeza...
Desilusión, desamor y profundo dolor,
un mar de azules picazos me encierra en ti,
lágrimas congeladas y ensangrentadas, en mí,
el adiós del sol, una vista más allá del amor...
-Solem Nocte Infinitus-